I'm the shy, anti-social one

I went to church in my new suburban ward today. And then I remembered that large groups of Mormons freak me out. 


Having only gone to a "singles' ward" over the last few years (read: single young adults 18-30), I had forgotten the cacophony of crying children that exists in normal church meetings. It was so loud!


And then I was going to sneak out after the first hour, because I don't know anyone and I am crushingly shy, and sure enough, someone catches me and asks me who I am. Dang it. No being discreet, I guess. 


Then, in the process of giving him my contact information, two more nosy people come over and want to know who I am.  Can't I just be unknown for a bit? I hate things like this...it makes my anxiety skyrocket. 


Then, about two hours ago, I get a phone call. It's someone from church. She wants to meet me, she'd like to know when a good time is that she could come over and visit and get to know me.


Sigh...


I know I should be glad that people are so friendly. But I'm not. I hate friendly when it's bombarding me. I'm too shy for all that. I don't want anyone to come over and visit. I don't want to meet a ton of people. I don't want to stand up and introduce myself and talk about stuff.  I want to slip in the back quietly, leave discreetly, and get to know people gradually, when I decide I want to meet people. 


Instead, I now have to return this woman's phone call or look like a rude jerk and then I'm going to have to "visit" with her and I am going to be very uncomfortable/have raging anxiety issues. 


I just want to be the quiet, unnoticed one until I'm ready to branch out. Blech.